I had a hard time coming up with a topic to blog about this week.
Blogging, for me, is mainly an attempt to grow my fan base while also expressing myself through writing. The fan base thing is a work in progress--while I still entertain dreams of being a successful, traditionally published author someday, I live in reality. (Usually). So I know the chances of that dream coming to fruition are small.
When I do receive encouragement online or in person to continue writing, I jump all over it. I let it feed me. I make more consistent efforts to share my writing with the world, because, well, people keep allowing me to continue. (And by allowing me to continue, I guess I mean that no one is telling me to stop). Also, sometimes people even praise my writing, insisting that I keep going, that I don't quit. I'll never forget-- I was at a writing retreat a few years ago, and after having shared a couple pieces at open mics and during workshops, a stranger approached me and complimented me. I remember blushing and stammering something about how it was the one time I was guaranteed an audience whom I could force to listen to me. I said it as a joke, sort of, but after hundreds of rejections from literary agents, it was also a rather accurate statement. She seemed shocked that there was anyone out there who would feel differently than she did, and she reassured me that she had truly enjoyed listening to my words.
I don't say all that to fish for affirmation or gain any sympathy. Just want to acknowledge that as a human... sometimes we need to know that what we're passionate about matters. That someone else believes in what we do.
But the thing about writing for me, and I've mentioned this before, is that I would do it for an audience of one. Who it is that's reading--that's rarely defined what it is I'm writing.
With blogging, however, it's different. I'm aware of who is reading. With my limited social media and elementary marketing skills, and all but nonexistent ability to make things look pretty... I consider myself fairly lucky that anybody comes by here at all. :)
So I guess what I'm trying to say, really, is thank you.
Thanks for coming by my standard looking, sometimes random, little-engine-that-could-type blog. Whether you're visiting once or often--I'm glad you're here.
Because while I would keep writing without you...
I wouldn't keep blogging. And I know that there's nothing amazing, fancy, or even particularly practical about my little corner of the internet.
But I'm still so glad you took a few minutes to come read. I happen to believe that someday, probably when we're face to face with Jesus, we're going to find out that those little things weren't just little things.
They were everything.
So thanks for taking a little bit of time and reading the musings of an aspiring author. If I'm never known for my writing, I'd like to hope that I'll be remembered for my gratitude. If not by thousands of fans, than by a few dozen supporters. That is more than enough to fill my heart. I've never been good at sticking with something that requires constant dedication. Past attempts at blogging have fizzled and failed after a few months. But this time, you've all inspire me to keep posting.
And while I couldn't come up with a good topic today, I think that actually turned out to be a good thing. Because in my opinion, the world would be a way better place if we paused and thanked the people around us a little more often.
I appreciate each and every view I get. And if you're reading this, I want you to know--I'm praying for you. I don't believe in accidents. I stopped believing in coincidences when I really found my faith, when I realized that Jesus wasn't just a guy who died on a cross a long time ago-- I discovered that He is a real, living, loving God who wants a personal relationship with me, and with you. So wherever you're sitting, whoever you are, and whatever you're doing--I think that even in the small things, God doesn't believe in wasted time or insignificant moments. I think it all matters, and I think you're reading these words because God put it on your to-do list today. I know that even when we don't plan on things... God does. I believe He wants to bless us even beyond the wildest dreams we have for ourselves. So I thank you for coming here today, because I believe you are a part of the dream God has planted in my heart. I want to pray that your dreams, whatever they are, are coming true for you. Because while you've blessed me by stopping by, I pray that the greater blessing is for you. That maybe you read something you needed to read today--not because I am an awesome writer. But because I know a truly awesome God. I pray for your health, and the health of those you love. I pray for peace and joy in your life, and in your faith.
And a million times over--
I thank you.